l'adieu oiseau

I had a dream, I was standing in front of the mirror, with the same face, what are you now?

In the same paths, but suddenly you're not so young anymore

Do you still do what you love or it's just a memory?. M

Lilac

Hope is a flower stored in the box

Like Schrödinger's cat, time runs

What is it?

Talked to my friends, talked to myself

Humans blame when something makes them feel unstable

But that's not me

Be complicated, said to be my problem, melancholic, suicidal-depressive as surnames

We follow our instincts, we can't blame nature for the fear of our hearts.

The truth, I can't finish this poem

I can't finish something that never existed

Something that just lives in my mind

The only thing there I can do is: start over

& to look at the cat's eye again. M

Forehead kiss

Man, I wish I had things as clear like you

But, you look at me as if expect some of me 

I wanted to give you everything

But, you can't hold my hand

No one has treated me like you

Nobody lied to me like you

Nobody looked at me like you

Why do you say that?

Why are you angry?

Why do you hit, hit my lips

Man, there's a hole in me

& when I look to you again

Something inside me it breaks 

Maybe, my soul is trying to say

How much I really loved you, Man. M

Into your wings

Inside the loneliness of world

I love you, since I saw you, 

nitrogenous bases & bones easy to break,

I'm more fragile than you

I don't need to understand

in this sick world, you are a blessing

forever, my child. M

things

Things that I learned or that forget

Moments that I remembered, songs I sang

what I touched or saw 

When I painted and drew

Things that I deleted or block

All dreams that I dreamed and all I wanted

Things that I said or thought, words that I shut up or keep , 

Things that I did and didn't, when I hit or I breaked

what I read and wrote

every time I cried and kiss

Things that I loaded, pedaled or pull down and burn

When I failed and hurt me

when they hurt me and broke my heart

All the times that I wish you were here

All times that I cook, ate and throw up

Things that I cleaned

what I hear or smelled

Things that I bought

when I loved or  I hated

Things in that I believed 

when I manipulated and lie

All the times when I felt whatever

All persons that I conquered, and fell in love

Games I played and won

Things that I made me feel sick

Poems that I composed and correct

Thing that I photographed and memorizing

All that times I danced and kicked

Things that I searched and found or lost

Things that I lived

with all ghosts that I saw

- Do you think it worth your shit? 

- Do you think it worth all shit of the world?

it's just a moment, then you go with your nothingness, can I say.

Things that I lived is conected with all shit of world with the void. M

September

--The words can't explain the secret sense-- Herman Hesse.

The first saw you I had a foreboding what never forget,  and thought when I could to see you again. When the world found us again this same feeling took me away from you. From us. What the could never be: A feeling. M

Sunday evening

Walking next to you, listening your voices

Moon grows

Why did you decide to stay?

I don't say anything but I pushed you three times at the vacuum and you're still here, with me, and watching the moon grows.  M